Melancholy is a giant shadow that envelops me. And, I wonder aloud, "what to do to move into the light?" My companions, sadness and tears come at regular intervals. It's all I can do to smile when I am with my precious boys playing the pool or chasing each other through the park. The desire to run is great but my lethargy is greater.
The healing I experienced in Thailand faded quickly. I must try to remember how bathe myself in forgiveness and unconditional love when I am alone and far from home. When I step into the sunlight, it helps. I can feel myself under the same sky as my Beloved.
While new fears gnaw at my heart, my dreams hold me and give me comfort. I cannot change the past, but I can navigate my future. Plan, then let go of the reigns and allow things to unfold in a way that is usually better than I have schemed.
Taking a yoga class yesterday after some time away from a personal practice and teaching, I realized I am not doing what it is that I am most passionate about. I need to keep doing what feeds my soul and refills me when I feel far from Love and the future feels unmapped. I can only look toward today and try to leap far enough to land on my feet.
Look to this day!
For it is life, the very life of life.
In its brief course
lie all the verities and realities of your existence:
The Bliss of growth
The glory of action
The splendor of beauty
For yesterday is but a dream
And tomorrow only a vision
But today well lived makes every yesterday a dream of happiness
And every tomorrow a vision of hope.
Look well, therefore to this day!
Such is the salutation to the dawn.
~ Kalidasa, Indian Poet