Breaking through who you thought you were and seeing that you are something more.
This is what Adi, Stephanie's husband and Dharma teacher, repeated throughout one of his flow classes... Breaking through who you thought you were and seeing that you are something more.
This for me, meant a change in the way I view myself. Can I step away from what my thoughts are (I'm not qualified or good enough... someone doesn't like my class... I'm too tough on my kids... or I am to critical of others or I am... whatever my "identity or label" is) and instead realize I do not have to become my thoughts and feelings. How can I replace these inner patterns or impressions (Samskaras)? These Samskaras are our "inner, emotional, and physical default settings". How can I reset them?
His suggestion, look at your intention, one layer at a time. What's your first layer? Second layer? Then, to learn a new pattern in the body and mind, practice it constantly. In our physical yoga practice, most of us go too far too fast, accelerating through to the doing process. While the discipline of a yoga practice (Asana) is to use it as a vehicle for meditation. So many days, I just focus on the body, don't you? Very little introspection.
As I write, it's 6.30am, and both of my boys come tumbling into my room, tackling, and tickling asking for breakfast... so the day begins. Time is a precious commodity. Learning to break through my Samskara, believing that I am more than just a mom... just a teacher... just... is a choice and practice to cultivate.
Just changing outward circumstances will not change the experience of life.
YS (Yoga Sutra) 4:9